Текст песни Eldest 11 Bleach

It's a way of recovering what I lost...(in the Vicodin)
When I began, I tried to make it right, but it went wrong.
And then it's hard to unravel the knots in your heart.
It's an escape, a secret love when God won't listen anymore, all i think:

GOD, I've done too much damage to my body.
It's HARD, when you feel like your world was made to cave.
(For way too long, I kept holding on)
but now I'm tired of everything...

I try to ignore the fact that I can't breathe anymore.
Back then, we had a good run when I was sober, but it's all gone.
(and if you can't understand)
I was good at everything....
Dear love, they took the best part of me.
In my life...I've felt so distracted.
Afraid to start again.
Alcohol burns like a bombshell.
I Died, put the morphine on the medicine spinner...
Oh MY GOD, I've done too much damage to my body.
It's HARD, when you feel like your world was made to cave.
(For way too long, I kept holding on)
but now I'm tired of everything....
(When the finger slip, you can forget me holding on)
Now I'm tired of everything....

I try to ignore the fact that I can't breathe anymore.
Back then, we had a good run when I was sober, but it's all gone.
(and if you can't understand)
I was good at everything....
Dear love, they took the best part of me.
(I Kept trying but I'm tired of everything)

Cutting through the hallway bleeding out my nose...
Nobody ever understands anymore...
I couldn't change, you couldn't take time....but I don't care!
You motherfuckers never cared!