Текст песни Eldritch Anisette Suckerpunch

I am holding back now
Wish I could still stand up for myself
I start too early, the room is spinning
Could someone hold a place for me?
I'm getting ugly and yet I find they are
Attracted to me like I am a porch light
And when they bite just pick them off
And drown them in the alcohol
Can't find much comfort with both hands tired now
Can't seem to hold myself together
I am holding back now
Wish I could still stand up
I am holding back now
Wish I could find a way to stand up for myself
This room's too edgy so please excuse me
If I start talking to myself
Well I might not be that smart but I'm not that stupid
I'm just too gutless to know much better
And when they've sucked me dry enough
I find it meant nothing at all
Can't find much comfort with both hands tired now
Can't seem to hold myself together
My skin is itching, there is no feeling
Left at the fingertips: a burnt-out cigarette.